I’ve been living in fantasies/of love with Patrick Stump/I’m worried I have high blood pressure/I had to throw away the juice because I was worried it would kill me/I think you hate me/my life is slowly crushing me/under the weight of bad decisions/therapy is helping/I feel a little less worthless/I made a decision for myself instead of asking seven people first/I miss you/I love you/I’m glad you’re in my life/I’m disgusted by my grey hairs/I’ve decided to call them sun spots instead of age spots because it sounds more whimsical/I don’t hate man buns/I think my musical tastes are too pedestrian/I feel hope in this country for the first time in too many years/I am ashamed of my body/I think I’ve been conditioned to hate myself by the patriarchy/it worked/I worry my kids will hate me someday/I read fan fiction last night to escape reality/I want to talk to you more/I’m afraid of annoying you/I think I might be a good person/I believed I was a bad person too long to rush into that decision/I miss writing poems/I miss love/I sometimes wish for a break from being a mom/I sometimes wish I had wanted more for myself/I have you on a pedestal/please don’t make me take you off/stay/let’s talk more about the weather
August 13, 2024